Just a note I never sent...some may understand

you know me, and i don't care, but here is a guy who knows what he's talking about. I wanted things for myself and never considered my friends and what may be convenient to them because I was in my own world...stressed, worried....I don't remember what it was really but I realized my friends were getting angry at me and I was like WTF! Fuck off...that's where you lose the friends that you don't realize are actually the ones that care about you. How do you know they care? Because they stand by your side still, they argue with you and tell you that you are being a jerk because they want to have fun with you without you making them miserable, and eventually you'll say...oh fuck...eventually you're going to realize that you need to fix your act. The world doesn't revolve around you and if your friends have different interests in doing whatever then you'll be a good friend and care about them before you. Your friends are what are going to keep you sane. Trust me... you may not need to hear all of this but I'm just saying all this because I care. I have a few very good friends, only a few and a bunch of other ones that are “friends” but those real friends are the best thing about my life. When I feel like shit I have someone to talk to...and I tell them the TRUTH because I know they are my friends and they won’t judge me. They will accept me for who I am and the mistakes I’ve made...and yeah it may be embarrassing and yes sometimes I will look like a douche because we all do stupid things but at least I was honest with myself and my friends. Learning to accept the shit you’ve done is a big deal...anyway, don’t worry about me...If you want to read this and take anything out of it then you’ll be reading this line right now saying, “why the fuck are you telling me this?” and if that is what you’re thinking...well, read it again...