we find ourselves saying that we're human and that everyone fucks up from time to time but just as we are saying it we find out it's us... I was so caught up trying to figure out the truth that I ended up hurting the last person I thought i'd ever hurt...I am stupid....so stupid and I regret it even though it is resolved I'm still dazed from it even as I stared at the computer screen...I can't believe I upset her like that...I'm reckless and stupid and now after it's all over I find myself tearing as I write this because I feel for her so much. I love you and I am really sorry, I know I've tried telling you but I really mean it so much and wish I never did it. You never deserve it, and here I was doing it...I was in the wrong and I feel stupid for doing it. Most of all, you're my closest friend and I hurt you, which is the last thing i promised myself I'd ever do to you. I trust you, I really do, so much you don't even understand... and the fact that I doubted you is disappointing to me. I should have told you right away but I didn't and the fact that I didn't  proves my lack of trust in you at that moment. I'm very ashamed in it, and I promise you so much that it will never happen again.
I love you


Goodnight.