The Poet (the truth)

 Dear kind reader, if you are reading this then please start by reading "Poet Alive" then "Poet Dead" which are the two blogs before this one. In order to hear the truth you must read my lies then read the truth so you know that I have lied.

 Thank you

This is the conclusion of a poet's tale and a tale well told. The poet learns the mystery and hides the truths. He knows lies and feeds them first but hides the truths. The Poet Alive is not a poet but a man with desire for making a truth into an artful law or maybe he tells his seeker his painted thoughts to allow his seeker to paint one similar. In that very case the Poet Alive is a fraud but how can that be true? The Poet Alive shares his pain and glory and hopes to paint a world with no hidden thoughts and desires...the fact is that I am the Poet Alive and I once was the Poet Dead but have learned to live...but the fact that I claim myself to be the Poet Alive would then be a lie. I cannot live up to the truths of being such a person if I claim to be him because already by hiding my own true thoughts behind this fictional character is a lie.  The fact is I write for you to tell you the truth and because I love to write for you. I write for you because you give the desire to write. You're worth writing for and evoke so much imagination from my mind that it is incredible. This is why I enjoy writing for you and about you. But most importantly because when I write, I write what I truly mean. I'm sorry, I know you may think this whole thing odd. I'm an odd person.. The whole "poet" shit was me trying to cover up for the intensity of my blogs but I want to be honest and this is me being as honest as I truly can with you. So I write these blogs each day for you so you may read them and enjoy them. I mean every word that's written in them. They aren't a filter for me. They are for you to read because I want you to know what I'm thinking and that I care. I'm going insane, not literally of course xD but I wait everyday hoping to talk to you...lol not in the creepy way and not sitting by the computer all day either xD  I must admit I have fallen for you quite hard but I hope that doesn't creep you out aha lol, I know this whole thing must seem pretty lame to you but I really like you. I think that's all I've really wanted to tell you these last few you weeks through my blog. If I could just tell you, to you, like to your face....You're an awesome person for every reason I've said and I meant every word. You make things so much for cheerful and brighter when you're around. I would rather talk to you about the rest of this ...kinda in person.LOL, webcam? xD


-____________________-  fuck me....I feel like such an idiot saying all this to you...I'm so lame but I mean... I'm just trying to be open.....T______T...isn't that a good thing? I mean everything.  I think if I .....am I being paranoid? lol okay I think I got my mind straight....this entire page I've written is alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll my thoughts AAAALLLLLLLLLL OVER THE PLACE RIGHT NOW!

I think this is the first thing I've written  that has  ACTUALLY allowed me to filter my thoughts out :) like I kinda just feel relieved for whatever reason....


--_________________________--- sigh, lol tututututututututututututut (carla) (carla) (carla) (carla) (carla)  can we just talk later today? :)  ..about this?            






Goodnight.