It is summer time again, there is only one thing that bothers me now...we never carry a conversation...whenever I say something it is always these one lined responses I get like, "wow" :Oh my: etc... I want to be able to talk with you not say something and have it end on "oh dear." But I guess it is also me...always making stupid immature jokes that makes it hard for you to take me seriously and it probably gets old after a while. But the one thing I don't want is to have to think about this every time we have a conversation. I don't want to try and force conversation either. :/ lol I don't know what I want exactly but I know we are happy so I think that is what really matters. Oh sweet summer time :3
The main thing is that I don't want two weeks of this "summer" to last and have to wait for July again for you to be happy. It is tiring seeing you upset all the time. I just want you to give an effort. Like yesterday and now...don't you think I am upset about alley? Yes I am but I made the effort yesterday to be happy and cheery with you...yeah I talked about it but I didn't mope about it the whole time because I want to be able to laugh, and smile and have fun with you. You shouldn't have to hope mope with me because I am feeling crummy. That wouldn't be fair. But I was faking being happy...just because I am putting in that extra effort to be happy doesn't mean I am faking it. Actually after I put in that extra effort I don't regret it because I am relieved that I am happy. It feels good to be happy with you. I just want you to do that with me when the New Year comes around please. That is all I ask babe. We can have our summer all year long if we both make that effort : ) will you?
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